This time I won't write some endless stories, but I decided to show you my "new" room instead. It's astounding what a bit of colour and wallpapers can do >D I love the new atmosphere, it's so light and bright. My "old" room was vanilla-coloured and had two crimson red walls. I liked it, too - but now years later, I'm sick of seeing the same everyday :3
My room's not complete finished. Have to print new photos and arrange some things. But awwww~ it's so cozy! And comfy~! ❤
My room :3 Vintage-print-wallpapers <333
My new rug *__* It's soo fluffy! 'twas a christmas present from grandma :3 I love those two structures.
Awwww~ this lamp is made of love! My mum gave it to me on St Nicholas' Day.
The vase is from a discounter >DD 50cent *coughs* xD
I thought it would match the dried roses just perfectly, so I bought it :3
The roses are now ...uhm... something like ~2 years old? They were a present when I visited Berlin and I didn't want to throw them away, when they began to crumble. So I dried them, to keep them :3
Thingies in the front and in the background are from the Netherlands.
They look beautiful! They look a bit like trees made of feathers, fabrics and pearls.
This statue [~45 centimeters] is from a flea market in the Netherlands. I totally love this Klimt-style :3
I possess a smaller figure portaying "The Kiss" as well.
My mic! *___* I love it. And the mic-arm my dad gave to me for christmas xDD Finally less cable tangle :3
I have to record some songs soon! Thank you so much, Rieke, for giving it to me <33 I think the first song will be Aimo from Macross Frontier. Or something from Bana.
At first I decided to write this weblog entry in German, but suddenly... I don't know why - I just felt like English >D So strange. But maybe it has something to do with my discovery of a certain "Christmas song", although I wouldn't describe it as such. The first time I heard this song was in the movie version of "P.S. I love you" and completely fell in love with it from the very first minute. But then... I lost track somehow. It was somewhere in the depths of my mind, but it was not something I was really looking for. Then yesterdy while driving - or should I say slidding? - to a class reunion I heard it again in the regional radio programm. Well~ that was the impetus. Now I'm sitting in my room and listen to that song over and over again <3
Ah! The song's called "Fairytale in New York" by The Pogues.
Unfortunately that song reminds me of itchy feet .__. Especially the Irish elements in the middle part. I found myself excessively browsing YouTube for Irish music and stuck to The Dubliners... I adore that kind of music, but listening to it is so hard. Because I know I'm in Germany right now. No pub-feeling, no people in t-shirts walking through snow, no St. Stephen's Green park, no Dundrum shopping mall, no "bus stops", no shore in Gorey, nothing *sigh* In fact my one-month stay in Rathfarnham/Dublin was everythin else than nice. My host family was horrible ("mum" and "dad" were unemployed, had three children and six other guests from different countries. Me and my room mate shared a room of approximately 7m² - and all 13 people one bath room. Aweful :/ When you have to be punctual for work...geez. And some more things I'm going to tell later or in the following entries.), work wasn't that great either, the weather was very "Irish" >D But somehow... when I was back in Germany I didn't feel complete anymore.
I don't even know what it was that made me truly, truly love that country. Maybe the people, maybe the language, maybe the landscape, maybe just sitting in the park reading a paper and listening to German tourist that go by and think of you as a native. Haha, i'm on the verge of tears. Again. I have to go back. I feel it. I have to study hard, save money (I don't have) so that I can spend at least a semester abroad. That's my greatest wish.
Sadly my computer crashed and I lost all photos of the time back then. Precious memories of mine. Luckily I met a former class mate yesterday and she told me she could send me some of them. I hope she will keep her promise.
But now - enough with that depressing stuff.
As I mentioned earlier I attended a class reunion. I was completely overwhelmed! I was looking forward to that meeting but I didn't expect that so many of my old class mates and even teachers would come! Naturally I wasn't all buddy-buddy with everyone, but I was a nice experience to see each of them again. We talked about our plans for future, the past and lots of things we considered as insider jokes back then. I talked to someone about what happened between us and the reason we had no contact and she fully understood. I hope she will contact me, so I can see whether she's serious. I didn't mention our argument in front of the others - they didn't seem to care. So I didn't either. But it was a great evening nevertheless and I stayed until the end - where we ended up at McDonald's eating burgers and ice cream xDD
I even enjoyed the time speaking with my former teachers. Unfortunately my history teacher left early (work in the next mornning *cough*), so we had no chance to have a conversation. But he promised to attend the next reunion as well! =) I like him pretty much, he was one of the coolest teachers ever. And the first one to mediate history succesfully >D
The most amazed I was about the conversation I had with my German and English teacher. Great people, who I respect deeply. They said they are content with me, because I chose the way of studying. They said they would have been disappointed if I had begun to work immediately. And that it's no wonder I chose the way of writing and expressing myself, cause that's one of my talents, they stated. I felt happy and relieved after they told me that. I always feel insecure and hardly belive in my own skills. It's nice to hear I don't strive for something unreachable for me. I wrote a report about StrawbellyCake, singer, voice actress and dear friend of mine. She said she liked it pretty much. Makes me happy :3 If there's anyone interested in this article, I can post it here in German or translate it. So, tell me! :3
I will push myself more. I need to do more for my future life.
Eww~ Long entry is long! Now some photos to catch the remaining Christmas spirit <3
(All photos are taken with my cell)
Awesome 10-centimeter-snow-man on my university's balcony *laugh*
Christmas and belated birthday present for a dear friend <33
My snowy way back home from university :3
The forest I pass every day :3
and again :3 It's beautiful, right? I love that calm an serene landscape!
Well then~ see you soon, hons ♥
Dienstag, 7. Dezember 2010
Well~ I'm at university and waiting for the next courses. So I'm trying to spend my time on updating my blog a little bit. I'd like inform about my visit of the musical >>Wicked<< and (oh my) I'm completely in love with it. I watched it for the third time and it mesmerized me all over again. I was there with a close friend of mine and we sat in the first rank. It was so stunning! You could see every smile, every facial expression of the actors. It's such a pity you aren't allowed to take a camera with you, for it was simply breath-taking. The costume details, the moves, the effects, the sound - it was just perfect. I almost wish to go there for a fourth time (and then most probably a fifth time as well). This time I bought a high gloss booklet from the show with the German cast. How I love them! Willemijn Verkaik and Joana Wuerz are great! *__* They are my favourite Elphaba and G(a)linda. I'm totally Wicked-addicted lately. Especially since looking for some clips on Youtube, where I found an excerpt of "popular" in which Glinda explains how to fling your hair in the most girlish way. She and Elphaba fooled around, got lost in the action and suddenly Glinda states: "No headbanging!" I laughed so hard >D God gracious! >3
(I just took random images from Google - don't have the time to look for our cast)
Have to go for now .___. I'll write more later. Bye Byez~ <3
Today something shallow instead of small essays about competence and stuff like that. I'm a bit tired and I think this day won't last any longer. Sports are way too exhausting.
Nevertheless I rummaged around in my wardrobe (yeah, I used to store them there) and found two nice fabrics I bought a while ago. One with a newspaper print and the second one in a blueish vintage style.
The blueish one will become a baker boy cap for a dear friend of mine and the newspaper fabrics will turn into a bag (I think it's a funny idea, since I'm studying journalism). Ah, btw the pictures are taken by my small digital camera, no SLR *sigh* Saving takes so much time. I clearly won't make it this year. But I won't give up :3
It’s 8:30 a.m. and I’m at university. A lesson was cancelled unheraldedly, so I’m trying to spend my time doing random stuff until the next lesson will start. In the last few days I was thinking about which topic I could talk in my weblog. I remembered a student in my course who left a very special impression on me, respectively he lacks a very important skill. Social competence. Since I’m attending a lesson concerning that topic I became curious what „Social Competence“ does mean. In groups we talked about that issue and some of the other girls said something like: „Social competence means being nice.“ The others agreed. Then someone said: „You learn being socially competent at school.“ They agreed again. But is it really that simple?
The Internet says: „Social competence refers to the social, emotional, and cognitive skills and behaviors that children need for successful social adaptation.” and I think this definition is much more appropriate. In my opinion social competence is the ability to adapt to the social environment, the skill to interact and communicate successfully (emotional and rational), to respect and understand a different cultural behaviour, etc. A short explanation is not possible in just one phrase. Just being nice does not cover up the involved factors. And school does not mediates the complete social behaviour. School takes an important role for sure, but parental education is important as well. For example: You live in an old an shabby flat, you have to endure maltreatment in the worst imaginable way and the only expression of love you get to know is the experience of total neglecting. On the other hand you attend a school with a good reputation, nice and caring teachers and loyal students. I don’t think school will totally erase the negativity experienced at home. And I don’t think that there will be even the readiness to accept those maybe positive factors, simply because you are not familiar with that. I understand, that this is much more complex, but I’m writing a blog - not a book.
Nevertheless the student, I referred to in the first passage, is an outsider. No euphemism, no sugarcoating. He is just called “the nerd” or “the patient”. He does not differ in his appearance from the stereotype of a normal student, means he does not represent an own style of clothing that would make him stand out even more. He’s not tall, not small, he dresses properly, wears glasses and that’s all. But he lacks something very special: The ability to interact with his environment. I don’t even know in detail what it is that makes him this way. But I’m curious. The way he speaks and expresses himself is so much different from how we (the stereotype) used to talk. The intonation, the dramatic in his voice, short breathing stops are far beyond the average. He is not stupid. He is intelligent. He always asks random question (I’m convinced he knows the answers to his questions himself) and he answers in questions (i.e. “Does anyone know what XY might be?” – “I myself... I think, XY... is... the oppor...tunity... to XY, perhaps?”) There’s no need for him to be unsure. And he is always right. I’d understand his unsteadiness if he would look for social isolation. But that’s not the case. If I were looking for an adjective to describe him it, would be confiding. Just like a puppy. He strives for integration, but the more he tries, the more he fails. Seems that I lack social competence as well when I can’t integrate him in my comprehension. I talked about that issue with a fellow student and she mentions that she heard of a disease, namely a light form of autism. tbc
It's not that I don't have enough weblogs - it's just that I wanted to start something new.
A new part in my life that maybe will make me perceive things from a different point of view. I will use this weblog to present issues that are important in my life: writing, fashion an photography.
● Writing - I actually love writing and I can't explain the reason I have forgotten that for such a long time. I worked for a company in the automotive sector as clerk in wholesale and foreign trade but I never grew accustomed to the bureaucratic working day, cold and lifeless. So I decided to do something with more feeling. Despite the short period (only 3 weeks up to now), I haven't regret choosing the study of journalism and public relations even once and I'm sure I will be content with this choice. In order to practice and to gather my thoughts I decided to make this part of my blog.
● Fashion & Photography - I'm interested in both as well, so I wanted to share my impressions. I did costume sewing a while ago (and I'm still), but now I want to shift the emphasis to some every-day clothing. I think wearing a skirt or something like that only once or twice a year is a waste, when you put so much effort in every single piece. Furthermore I want to have a look at photography. I'm not that good at taking pictures, but I want to improve. Currently I'm saving for a SLR camera.
This weblog will be in German and sporadically in Englisch. I'd like to improve my language skills, because I nearly spoke no English for more than 2 years and unfortunately I tend to unlearn quite easily :( Maybe I'll spend my fifth semester abroad, so that would be a nice opportunity to refresh my English :)
Well then,
have fun :3
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Nicht, dass ich nicht genügend Weblogs hätte - dieses mal wollte ich etwas komplett neues beginnen.
Als neuer Teil meines Lebens, hoffe ich, dass ich hierdurch lerne, die Dinge in einem neuen Licht zu sehen. Ich werde diesen Weblog benutzen, um Dinge zu verarbeiten, die eine große Rolle in meinem Leben spielen: Das Schreiben, Fashion und Fotographie. ● Das Schreiben - Eigentlich liebe ich das Schreiben sehr und ich kann nicht einmal den Grund erklären, warum ich es für eine so lange Zeit einfach vergessen habe. Ich habe meine Ausbildung im Bereich Automobile // Groß- u. Außenhandel gemacht, konnte mich aber nie so richtig an diese routinegeprägte Büroatmosphäre gewöhnen. Daher entschied ich mich, einen neuen Weg einzuschlagen und etwas mir mehr "Gefühl" zu machen. Trotz dieser wirklich kurzen Zeit (gerade mal 3 Wochen), habe ich es bisher nicht bereut, das Journalismus & PR-Studium begonnen zu haben und ich denke, dass ich auch recht zufrieden mit dieser Wahl sein werde. Um also das Schreiben zu üben und um meine Gedanken zu ordnen, möchte ich das auch zu einem Teil des Bloginhalts machen. ● Fashion & Fotographie - Mich interessiert beides sehr, daher wollte ich meine Eindrücke teilen. Ich nähe seit einer ganzen Weile Kostüme und möchte es auch weiterhin tun, aber ich möchte meinen Schwerpunkt eher auf alltagstaugliche Kleidung verschieben. Meiner Meinung nach ist es Verschwendung, einen Rock (oder anderes) nur ein- zweimal im Jahr tragen zu können, besonders da man soviel Mühe in jedes einzelne Teil steckt. Des Weiteren möchte ich auch einen Blick in die Fotographie werden. Ich bin nicht besonders gut im fotographieren, möchte mich jedoch verbessern, da es mir einfach unheimlich Spaß macht. Derzeitig spare ich auf eine Spiegelreflex.
Dieser Weblog wird auf Deutsch und Englisch gehalten. Ich möchte meine Sprachkenntnisse verbessern, gerade weil ich seit knapp 2 Jahren so gut wie kein Englisch mehr gesprochen habe und ich dazu neige, sowas ziemlich schnell wieder zu verlernen :( Vielleicht werde ich das fünfte Semester im Ausland verbringen, daher wäre dies nun eine nette Gelegenheit mein Englisch wieder etwas aufzufrischen :3
